Michael Buble has officially withdrawn from the music after the cancer wars of his son Noah.
The 43-year-old singer said that the heartache he suffered at the age of three after his son's diagnosis of cancer changed his "perception of life" and he was now finished with fame.
Noah, now in his fifth year, is currently in remission after his fight against liver cancer, but the ordeal has changed his life for Buble, who has since challenged his career in show business.
Michael is married to Argentine actress Luisana Lopilato, 31, and has three children; her eldest son Noah, son Elias, two, and daughter Vida, who greeted her two months ago.
Both he and Luisana put their careers on hold to be there for their son – they are jetting to the US for Noah to undergo treatment for hepatoblastoma.
The singer recounted how he made the "best of the situation" with Noah on his hospital visits and tried to make fun of his little boy.
With a new album titled Love, Along the Way, he explained that this is his time to step away from the music and go "after" the "perfect record" at the top.
Michael announced his decision to leave the industry, which he described as his "last interview" with Daily Mail's Weekend magazine …
"My whole being has changed since my son contracted cancer": Michael Bublé says he's embarrassed to realize how selfish he got when he nursed his boy Noah – but now he has his mojo back
By Chrissy Iley for Weekend Magazine
Michael Bublé knows better than most that fate does not miss and beckons the celebrities.
The Canadian singer has won four Grammys and sold 75 million records, earning him £ 35 million a year.
He has been married to the stunning Argentinean model and actress Luisana Lopilato for seven years and the couple live a luxurious life with their three children, Noah's sons, five, and Elias, two, and daughter Vida Amber Betty, who is just 11 weeks old ,
But none of this seemed meaningless when Noah was diagnosed with liver cancer two years ago and the devastated couple immediately announced that they would put their careers back to take care of their son.
Noah has been declared cancer free and today Michael looks friendly and slim when we meet in his London hotel suite. He's released a new album, Love – but it's one he admits he might never have done.
He is very emotional. His brown eyes grow at the mere mention of the C word and it is clear that he still lives in the shadow of what he describes as two years of hell.
"You just want to die," he says. "I do not even know how to breathe.
"My wife was the same, and although I was the stronger of the two, I was not strong, my wife was … I'm sorry, I can not make it to the end of the sentence." Let's just say we find out who we are with these things.
"I talked to Noah about not questioning who I am, questioning everything else, why are we here?
"Is that all there, because if that's all, there has to be something bigger."
He says one way he came through was to pretend to be Roberto Benigni's Life Is Beautiful character. The film of 1997 was put in a concentration camp and the way Benigni's character Guido and his son coped with it was a joke about everything.
"I do not know if that was a decision, but that's who I became," he says. "For example, I never called it the hospital, I called it the fun hotel.
"And every day I got extra sheets and I built a tent for Noah, I just made the best of it, survival."
"It was such a difficult task, it hurts and it hurts to talk about Noah because it's not my story, it's his.
"But my whole being has changed, my perception of life, I do not know if I can survive this conversation without crying, and I've never lost control of my feelings in public."
Michael likes to be in control and does not feel well crying. His heroes are the macho singers of the 50s and 60s like Frank Sinatra and Bobby Darin.
As a teenager, he put his Bible to bed and prayed that someday he would imitate her. "In a funny way, it's a therapy for me," he says.
"I actually thought I would never come back to the music business, I never fell out of love for the music, I just had to put it aside.
"The media helped me, they were not disrespectful, and in those two years my record company never asked me what the plan was, they said: 'We love you and we pray for you.'"
I was ready to interview Michael shortly after Noah was diagnosed for directing the Brit Awards in 2017, but the interview was canceled when he retired. "I had no interest in my career and I am grateful that I could afford to take a break," he says.
"I spent a lot of time with people who were not so lucky, and when this horrible news came, I realized that I did not enjoy the music business.
"I had lost the joy and at some point, just before the British, I started losing the plot, desperate to capture something that I thought I would lose, and I thought I needed to do something special it.
"I had started making things out of my comfort zone, like the presentation, and the truth is that it was a while ago that I had fun, I was worried about ticket sales for my tours, what the critics said, what the perception of me could be.
He grabs the netvo behind the curtain and puts it over his face. "I felt like I was living on my face with it, and the reality I saw was blurry.
"What was difficult was to go to the store to buy hot dogs and toilet paper, go to the gas station, take a walk by the sea to clear my head.
"Everyone recognizes me and says: How is your son?" If you think you are about to get over it, you will immediately be drawn back into it, but at the same time I have confidence in humanity.
"But the diagnosis made me realize how stupid I was to worry about these unimportant things, and I was embarrassed by my ego for allowing this insecurity.
"And I decided that I would never read my name in print, never read a review, and never did, and I decided that I would never use social media again, and I never did ,
"I realized that for many years I could not believe that I was on the same stage as my heroes, that I shared a microphone with Tony Bennett [Canadian pianist and singer] Diana Krall. I could not believe I was looking at someone like Paul McCartney, and I would say things like, "It's hard to come here, but my God, it's harder to stay here."
"But then I woke up and thought, 'After ten years of trying to come here and be scared for five years, it would disappear, I think I can enjoy it.'
It seems that his son's illness sparked this realization, that he was fixated on his own success. "I'm tired of it," he says.
"The celebrity narcissism, I began to crumble, but then I began to wonder why I wanted to do that at all.
"I forgot that it's about souls who connect because I'm so scared, there were people in my business who said," If you had not done that or written a better song , tickets could sell faster. & # 39;
"I took everything on board, nobody wanted to take responsibility.
"It was a lot easier for people to pass the buck on to me because I was already insecure enough, I would digest it and say, 'It's my fault, I'm absolutely nonsense.'
"It affected me and I started to think, 'Everything will go, I'll lose everything.'
"I was uncertain, I had learned from my heroes for so many years, but although I learned with passion, I was afraid that I would become a copy of my heroes in poor quality.
"But when I came back from that terrible time, I realized that I'm not just a photocopy, I learned everything from them, taken it and found it in my own soul, my own voice, my own style and now no critics to take that away.
"It had to be clarified, now I'm just singing the music I love, maybe if you let go, it might come back like love."
Michael is overjoyed that he now has a family of five. Things changed for him when his three-year relationship with his former girlfriend, Golden Globe-nominated Devil Wears Prada actress Emily Blunt, fell apart.
He blamed himself for the breakup and went to therapy. He bought self-help books, revised his eating habits (he tends to gain weight if he's not careful) and started going to the gym.
He still came upon Emily when he spotted Luisana after playing a show in Buenos Aires.
They met again at a party and he told her, "You are my wife, you do not know yet, I will come back and marry you."
One year passed with the exchange of e-mails, and when he told me when we met last time in 2011, "I was crazy about her, I went and asked her father's permission to marry her and we had a big one , beautiful wedding. "
When he learned that Noah was forgiven, the joy returned to Michael's world. Is it when the urge to make music again hits him?
"The two are inextricably linked, but it was not as simple as" My son is well again, I should make an album, "he explains." I told my manager that I wanted to do a ten-year sabbatical to hang out and can be bad.
"But I missed the guys in my band and when Luisana had to go back to Argentina I said to them, 'Come over to the house, let's drink, order pizza, play video games and jam.'
"They came over, we had a party and we said: 'Let's play some music.' I thought," Wow! That is fun."
He takes out his cell phone and shows me videos of his friends jamming in his house and playing the different songs that became the new album. "At that time I realized that I had failed to make music, I did not even know I missed it, that was about a year ago."
He's starting to increase now, and when his spirits rise, he laughs lightly and makes everyone around him laugh. As we talk, he flits between accents – we go from Liverpool via India and South Africa to Texas and finally to his version of a London accent that he loves.
He has worked with James Corden on a Carpool karaoke special for the Stand Up To Cancer fundraising campaign and likes the way Corden talks. "We see the Gruffalo movie about five times a day because my kids love it, and James Corden is the little brown mouse's voice, so it's in my house all day," my little boy would say.
He pauses. "There are three reasons why I wanted to make this album," he says.
"One, because I felt a deep gratitude to the millions of people around the world who prayed and showed compassion for us, deeper than I could explain, and that gave me confidence in humanity.
"Two, because I love music and feel that I can carry on the legacy of my idols, and three, because when the world comes to an end – watching not only my personal hell, but the political turmoil in America and see Europe break – there is never a better time for music. "
Then he suddenly stops. "This is my last interview," he says solemnly. "I'm retiring from business, I made the perfect record and now I can go all the way up."
But somehow I do not think he really means it.
Michael's album Love will be released on November 16th.