Carrie Underwood has announced that she has suffered three miscarriages in the past two years.
The "Cry Pretty" singer – who shares with Isaiah, 3, with hockey player husband Mike Fisher, 38, and has a baby on her way – opened up in an interview about her challenging fertility battles CBS Sunday morningand said she had the first miscarriage in 2017.
"I had somehow planned that 2017 would be the year I was working on new music, and I have a baby," said Underwood, 35. "We got pregnant in early 2017 and did not work out."
Underwood says she was involved in her beliefs at the time. "And that was the thing, in the beginning it was like," Okay, God, we know that's just not your timing. And that's fine. We will fight back and find our way. "
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After a second miscarriage in 2017 and a third in 2018, it was like this at the time: "Okay, how's the deal? What is that? "Underwood said.
"I've always been scared to be angry," Underwood explained her reaction to the heartbreak of CBS. "Because we are so blessed, and my son, Isaiah, is the sweetest, and he is the best in the world, and I think," If we can not have other children, that's fine because he's incredible. " And I have this amazing life, how, really, what can I complain about, I can not, I have an incredible husband, incredible friends, an incredible job, an incredible kid, can I be crazy?
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But when she thought she might get a fourth miscarriage, "I got mad," said Underwood CBS News & Tracy Smith.
One of her most emotional moments came when she snuggled with her son and thought, "Why on earth do I always get pregnant when I can not have a child? What, what's that? Close the door, do something, shut the door or let me have a child. "
"And for the first time, I feel that I told God how I felt," she added. "It was like a Saturday – and on Monday I went to the doctor to confirm another miscarriage and they told me that everything is great!"
She said, "He heard me."
In the cover story for Red bookSeptember, Underwood expressed concern that her window might close for the expansion of her family. "I'm 35 so maybe we missed our chance to have a big family," she said, causing some mixed reactions from fans.
"We always talk about adoption and about when our child or our children are a bit older," she added. "In the meantime, we are fortunate to be part of organizations that help children because our focus right now is in our lives to help as many children as possible."
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She also became open about her harsh 2017, which included a serious fall in November. Underwood stumbled on the steps outside her home in Nashville as she pulled out her dogs. She was injured, resulting in 40-50 stitches on her face and an operation on her broken wrist.
"It was … a very soul-searching year for me," Underwood recalled Red book, "There were some personal things that happened, and I had the accident and all that to get through … and just life, life is full of ups and downs, and I might have had a few more downs than ups last year "
The accident changed the way she saw herself. "It was also a perception because I look at myself [now] and I often see it, but other people are like, "I would not even have noticed." No one else looks at you the way you think they do. No one notices as much as you think what they want, so it was nice to learn. "
"It just was not nice," said Underwood today,
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After recovering from the injury and awaiting her second child, Underwood prepares some changes for her and her family. When Jimmy Fallon asked Underwood The Tonight Show When Isaiah sees his new role as a big brother, Underwood said, "I do not think he really does."
She enthused, "He's going to be really cute and talk to my stomach and kiss my belly, he's the cutest little boy, but no kid can really know her life is going to change … he's going to have to share mommy."