Melanie Parker was Will’s great childhood sweetheart. After their relationship ended, he ended up in a deep valley. He said he tried to work through the breakup by having sex with as many women as possible. However, this only backfired. “Up to that point in my life I had only had sex with one other woman except Melanie. But in the months after our breakup, I completely lost my mind. I had sex with so many women, but it felt so unpleasant to the core. my soul that I developed a stress response whenever I had an orgasm.”
And it didn’t stop there, according to Will. “It even made me throw up sometimes. With every woman I hoped that she would be ‘the one’ and take all the pain away. But every time I sat there gagging and miserable. And the look in the eyes of those women who only made my agony worse.”
In his memoir, Will talks about another sensitive subject, namely the bond between his wife Jada Pinkett Smith and the late rapper Tupac Shakur. Will said he was “tormented by their connection.” The friendships between the two made him insecure and eventually even caused problems in their relationship. “Although they were never intimate, their love for each other is legendary. At the beginning of our relationship, I was so insecure because of their bond. He was Tupac and I was just me.”
Will’s book also extensively discusses his traumatic childhood.